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Yesterday I finally really arrived at home, at Berlin. I stayed some days longer in Laufdorf, then I visited a friend in Dortmund and finally I was part of a preparation meeting for the upcoming ev. Kirchentag.

To be honest the time in Laufdorf hasn’t been that easy for me. A lot of things challenged me and I sometimes had the feeling as if I found more questions than answers.

But looking closer now I think i just expected the wrong kind of answer. I wanted so many Yesses, but got a lot of Nos. But maybe that’s not a bad thing after all.

No, small villages might just be too small for me. No, I’m not a good liturgist, I’m far too nervous for that. No, I’m not much of a people person, so I’ll propably never join a community. No, I don’t understand everybody out there and I don’t have the same wavelenght with all people.

Maybe these Nos can even be turned into Yesses: Yes, it’s good that I live in Berlin. Yes, it’s good that I made art my goal in life, I’m usually happiest when I can serve my fellow human beings in that way. Yes, I feel good with the people I let close, I chose my friends wisely.

Yes, I got to know myself over the last couple of years. I made good choices and took care of myself. I think I can be proud of that.

(Miriam)